I, have never been so weak, thinking on giving up, suicidal and can not find a way to bring the happiness in me back. Feeling sad when day turns to night, 'cos that is the time you find darkness and you can't turn the sun on. I feel nothing when I see the sun but I feel joyless when I see the moon and the stars. Fuck seriously, I need to leave all this like really. I can't take it any longer. Everything seems to be so... I don't know. I don't feel a single bit of true happiness in me now. I can't seem to hold on any longer. The current pulls me so hard under that I don't even have the strength to fight back. I want the strong me who doesn't cry infront of anyone usually, who doesn't emo infront of anyone normally and the one who's always laughing hysterically at everything like some crazy bitch, going around irritating people, and the one who never admits defeat and continues the fight as if nothing has taken place, grows stronger after. I'm even losing interest in taking pictures of beautiful clouds 'cos I'm in a shit mood everytime when I see pretty clouds.

Enough said. I feel like bitching about youknowwho(not eugn.k.t. plz) but if youknowwho thinks that your fucking life is more pathetic than mine then go find your luvlybestfriend fuck you and you and me might have 1 out of 1million percent chance of going coffee at starbucks eww ttmm plz.

Hi Joan, be strong. I'm here for you (and here to nag at you too) *tiaks*

Have a good night everyone. May all of you find your perfect soul mates and see pretty clouds everyday.

No love. *continues swearing*

EW YOU TTM