Oh why do I even bother saying this. Well yeah fk you bitch. I really hate to say that but fk you again. ALL YOU DO IS CRY AND KEEP ON FKING MOANING OVER THINGS THAT ARE NOT YOURS AND SHLDN'T BE YOURS YOU DUMBASS BITCHH. GET A LIFE AND STOP CRYING,MOVE ON FOR FK'S SAKE. IT'S JUST THAT I CAN'T SAY IT INFRONT OF YOU BECAUSE OF YOUKNOWWHO. WELL YEAH JUST FK OFF AND GET A NEW GAYBOYFRIEND AND JUST BLOODY START EVERYTHING AGAIN.

(I also told J it might not be a bad thing when someone ditches you. 'Cos at least you know at that very moment when the opposite ask for break up you know he/she don't love you anymore. If he/she still loves you they'd return in a few days time. Then why all the broken hearted bother waiting and make their lives so melancholic everyday. We live to die. Why not make use of the time and do something meaningful. At least that won't cause you any regrets.)

I'm sorry for the vulgarities. I just had to do it. Since a long time I hated someone so it's fair isn't it? It's not as if she is the only one sad so yes just fk off right now and you hope I don't see you. There's no other way to it(relating to what I've been cursing at) so y'know. I'm pretty tired of everything now. Like always. I so need to get out of this "hell" as you all know this place has nothing but fkloads of shit,dick and pussies and nothing else.

Do nothing and fk around in Singapore:
I'm studying for my fking air ticket to go to somewhere over the rainbow,playing volleyball to waste time and hanging out with idiot to know that I still know how to get angry. (note:I said IDIOT and not IDIOTS).

I'm sad inside but not to the extent of getting depression or any bullshit but what can I do about it. Even if I do get depression I can sorta like go on medication but what the f can I do when I'm sad. (!!!) I really do feel like quitting everything I'm doing right now. EVERYTHING. I just need my past back(which possibly will never ever happen).

I will lose weight this time round like I will really own you. You fking fat and "-fill in the blank-"
bitch. You can so like come and screw me but am I wrong to say all this? AM I? It's not as if I don't feel je-jea-jealous at all. If ya reckon I have a very big heart and all,bullshit. Try being in my position. IHY (!!!)

I've said my piece,cried and wasted a bit of time. If you just so happen to finish reading this,I thank you for reading. I'm sorry for the fks and I love the world.

Thanks Joan for talking with me throughout the 'journey' :)
Thanks boyfriend for that 2 weeks,I love you.

Back to what we were before the 2weeks came.
This is not tragedy,it's called geographical separation.

Till the next time I'm back -

Love,Carolyn.