So. In about an hour's time,I'll be making my way to Lavender to make my damn I/C.
Then,catch a movie with da girls(like finally a movie) and maybe to Hk Cafe.
See,I don't really have a life but comparing myself to other people,I can't say much.

Not to forget about my Midyear exam,I'm sorta fucked? (Not in truth but yeah)
Chemistry didn't make me feel better,earnestly. Math I,if I get a fail,I wouldn't be suprised.
Oh well. English I&II,Cheena I&II= Okay only thing. I'm not sure but ah,if I see any underline(Which I prolly will) I'll have to chiong for the next common test. But I'm pretty damn sure I can do it.

And I personally think that I'm a disgrace.
In what way? Everyway possible.
Sigh,I don't know. I feel like a failure.
Probably 'cos I'm stuck here.
Only time when I feel that I ain't a disgrace is when it's time for training?
'Cos my team is stronger than ever and we love each other. (Really meh)
But yeah. I'm so gonna die when training is back. It's back to square one again goddamnit.

Bai bai
AND IT'S THE END OF APRIL!!!!!!
But. To be frank,I really don't feel happy or anything.
All good things come to an end,lorh
Behind these heavy walls surrounding your hearts,no one truly knows what you are thinking.
They may think you're saving your own ass by saying that but you are actually not.
The present homosapiens are seriously bitches at times. They'd do anything just to get what they want or anything. Da group is a dying one,some,have no fucking brains that they have to bloody embarass themselves infront of others. Some,they do the same thing but they call others hypocrite and says that "you do that when you told me not to". Hmm,nice. I'm not saying I ain't a hypocrite. I just don't embarass myself infront of others like that. It's fuckin' embarassing if you and you can't feel it.

Not to forget,whatever you think,might not be exactly what he/she is thinking.
People feel that way too. So can I. It's not as if I don't fucking think about what I do.
I admit I don't have the guts to talk it out till today with J and S. The rest,it's up to you guys.
You all know this isn't gonna work but at least waste sometime on talking about it?
It's better to say behind. 'Cause eventually,he/she would know and we'll stop.
And,I found out the reason why J doesn't trust anyone. I shouldn't trust too. I've been too gulible(sp?) for three goddamn mfking years. It's time to change.

SOME ONE GET ME THAT PUMA BAG THAT JH SAW PLS?
IT'S SO NICE but of course,comes with a nice price tag too. About 180bucks? Ah...
But anyway,I hate this life.
I so need to get out. Of Sg.
Came back from mac @ about 11pm? With Eug and Yang.
The aircond made us felt sleepy,it's terrible.

Ah ya. Study tmr again OMGGGGGG :(
7 more days of exam. (Excluding 4 days of no school and 4 days of weekend)
:( no one can save me I swear.
I don't wanna see underline in my report book plsssssssssss.
I will work hard I promiseeeee.

K nightz people.
Airport tmr again,crap.
Another day has gone by. And,today's the start of the Midyears. Yes beginning. It's terrible.
I wrote something on 'traumatic experiences' for my compo and I hope i'll be able to pass,733words,it's all rubbish. Not forgetting cheena is rubbish. I think it's kinda tough?
But pass can alr. Trying very hard ah.

Anyway,I'm tired and I wanna sleep.
So many things I wanna do but.... Ah ya.
I need a break after the exams. It's so stressful.
I spent fifty bucks at ChangiAirport within 3days.
Might not be alot but I could've spent lesser if...

K baibai.
Good luck to me.

I love my boyfriendddddddddd :D
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I still got 67 days (bigggg sigh)

SOMEONE BRING ME TO THE BLOODY THEATHRE.
I NEED TO WATCH A MOVIE. IT HAS BEEN 2 MONTHS SINCE I STEPPED INTO THE CINEMA. RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I had a great birthday even though it wasn't that great.
Thanks those who helped out and all. Some were busy throughout the whole of time with me or just for me. I rly appreciate what you guys did and the presents you guys gave.

Day one,clique and mates got busy because of me.
Joan's hse to collect shitz>Check in to chalet but shit happened and wait wait wait till we saw Mr woo (from YYSVB) asked him to help us to check in cos we ain't 18-.->Checked in,play cards>Tv/Slept>Bought charcoal and all>Rest of clique came>5PM start fire all the way till 6+>7 started bbqing>while waiting for 12am,talked,played cards and blah,drinked>12am cut cake!!! (Thanks Joan for the brownie cake and Cephas for the Cheesecake.)

As usual,Eug got wasted. They went home after at about 2am?
Leaving J,Yh,Jh,S,D,E,Yk and some of the guys. Didn't sleep till 5am.

Day two,slept till 11>breakfast and bought charcoal and bla>bbq again-.->sleep>woke up,clique returned,bbq again(!!)>home at 11?

Yeah. Phebe gave me a minnie mouse balloon. It's head fell of and floated to the celling-.-
This guy helped me took it down. Aha,his godmum thought I was from NgeeAnnPoly. LOL.
So I pass as a poly student eh. :)

K post pics up as soon as Joan send me the pics.
LOVE YOU ALL :)
I'm 15 ahhaha
Gonna bathe and go collect shit from Joan's place.
Hope it'll be a good one today. Never doing this again I guess.
I thought it'd be the best birthday ever but...
Oh well. Life's like that. Happy birthday to me anyway :)

No matter what she tells me,I don't really care.
No matter how many times you lied,how serious or w/e it is,I never blamed you.
No matter how you scold me,I never held grudge against you.
No matter how many times I feel irritated by you,I never said anything.
But this time,things won't be the same.
I still remember the times we were having meals,you laughed,you smiled.
You called me at random times and asked random stuffs and I made you laugh.
14 years,I respected you. This is what you gave me in the end.
I guess it's goodbye.


There's nothing I can say to you
Nothing I could ever do to let you see
What you meant to me
All the pain,the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go
*He just fk himself up again. I don't know why are my parents so self-centered.
I really hate the fact that they are divorced even though it kinda benefits them.
It's THEIR problem but it still somehow affects me and become my problem.
I'm always the one sandwiched between two of them. I've told my mum before,
it somehow becomes my fault and I get scolding. She reckon that I'm just fking trying
to be pathetic. Since then on,I've never talked to her about this kinda shitz anymore.
That was my first time telling her those kinda thing anyway. 'Cos I feel that there's no point.

I don't know if they care. They just show me the 'I don't give a shit,cos you're old enough to settle it yourself' feeling. I never liked going home(when we all still lived under one roof).
I've told (V) before. But that's not the point. I just hate how things work in my family.
I don't mind them both quarrelling everyday,even though I hate it alot-.-
But I just don't want them,making their problem to my problem.

I hate my life. Not because I do the same thing everyday.
So what even if my life revolves around volleyball and school,I don't care.
Just as long as my parents doesn't give me problem,I'll be fine.

I'm happy,I manage to buy the rice flour rolls from whitesand's kopitiam.
I'm sad and pissed,my birthday's gonna be fked.

Bye. No mood.
I'm down with flu. It's so shit,like seriously.
Rah. Lvl 6-2 for beep test or w/e you call it.
And 27/40 for Physics,1st in class,spells pathetic.
7/12 for ss,behind Eugenia.
There's still Chem. Prolly getting it the next lesson.

MrLeong came back today,bald.
Hahah. Army is....
Imagine you have to carry 35kg of shit and up to the 5th lvl.
Damn. But I don't have NS,who cares.
Pity bf thou. Tsk.

But yeah. Gonna get fever soon.
But if I get my fever,I'll have to recover before the 18th.
I've got shit to do. That's my birthday chalet. Aha.

If you leave me half way...
Choy! No no no.

That one line I always leave at the end of the post:
Hi bf,I love you :)
& oh,half of the month is gone if you haven't realise :D
Hello all. St Hildas' the Champion again. (What's new,srsly)
Watched Presby. Vs Semb. too. Presby. won,as expected.
I still remember,we were there,in the court. Fighting for the national champ.
Oh well. It's gonna be us next year. I swear man this time.

But yeah. I hope my studies and vb will (you-know-what).
Seriously man. I'm putting in the hours and all that.
I'd be fking disappointed if I don't score. Good luck to me anyway.
Tmr is going to be our last training. Before the MYE exams I mean.
Then comes the GSP and exams. And I enjoy studying very much now.
I think I'm crazy but think again,I think I've grown up.
Aha,okay. I think I'm really.... but yeah.

I think life is such a pain in the ass at times.
Gives you suprises all the time,both good and bad.
When it's something great,it's really something like wohhhhh.
But when it's something bad,it's something you'll go like "Ah F lah!"
But that's life for ya and all of us here. You sometimes had enough of all that and you just wanna leave. But when you think about everything you have here,you gave up the thought.
So,does dreams of ours go *boom* when we think about going for it,but after thinking like this is prolly how far we can come,we give up?
Yeah this probably don't make sense but ah...
I just hate this life and I need something more... :)
I wanna move out but I don't bear to leave all the things I've had before here.
Every adult tells us to work hard and earn more cash and move our asses outta SG.
I kinda know why. Slogging their asses off just for cash and all that. I wouldn't wanna do that.
No. I wanna be a taitai.
No life,LOR.
Totally man.

Eh,you all think my english got improve?
Hahaha.

Goodnight all.
Home again but I'll be back at aunt's to stay tomorrow.
Last trg will be on sunday & next week we'll have GSP.
Like finally man. We get air-cond. rooms so like why not.
I need to see all passes in my report book again. I can't tell you how desperate I am man,it's so stressful. And at least a -erm,okay make it 55. I'm trying me best though.
Chemistry test today. I need to (you-know-what). Even if I don't top for chemistry again,I don't mind. At least I (you-know-what),I'll be contented. Physics tomorrow,ahhhhhhh. I need to (you-know-what) also sia.

And I really hate the school,not because we can't get air-con but they just don't give a fk about little things and still expect us to like listen to them?! I mean,srsrly man. Why can't they just fix our goddamn fans and we'll just keep our damn mouths shut after they fixed it and peace for everyone. JUST FIX THE FANS. Fans,hello?! You can say we're too kp but how do we study like that. Go look at the walls of our class man,it's pathetic. 4C2 gets to move into another room. But what do we get? Nothing. Bloody upgrading caused so much.

Anyway. Birthday's next week. Not very excited.
Say seriously,I kinda regret doing all this.
But yeah. Since I've already done it,I'll make it a good one.
I'm buying all my shitz on the 18th. No wait. I should go check it online first.

1)Hi bf,I Love You :)
2)Hi Jacquetta (If you ever see this)
3)Hi 3C2,please study for your goddamn Physics and MYE
4)Hi JOAN!! :D

Now baibai. I need to charge battery=zzz and look through Physics again.
I can't tell you how shit Physics is. TSK.
Hi. My bday's in 2 weeks time. Excited. HAHA.

Tmr is Eugenia's birthday. YAY!
We're celebrating it today and they're gonna stayover at my place. Yo~
I bought her the brownies from P.Osh and yeah. And for my mum and sisters.

Anyway......
Trg tmr,AHHHHH

I can't deny that you're the love of my life.
I'll hang on,it's just 3 months. You too (Inserts heart)

& I'm sorry,we can't talk tonight.