I just popped by eposh.net to look at the brownies and wtfabc,they look so good.
Probably gonna get some for Eug on her birthday. Hahah. Stupid girl,her birthday's before mine.
But yeah,it's just another day-to me. Hahah.

I am suppose to be showing up at the Sports day but obviously I didn't. I woke up and 5am but I decided to sleep in. I just wannna sleeeeeeep. Okay. I'm lazy,like duhhhh.
Training tomorrow and yeah. More gym,more defending and receiving,more attacking and of course,more aching. K,that's my life. I'm gonna go see the damn doctor later. I'm so lazy but ah.
I should probably call dad and ask first.

Lilyput or whatever you call it and however you spell it.
Hahah,I'm gonna go with da clique one day. Sounds so coolz.

Ok tv time. BYEBYE!
So quickly,three months had passed already. (Nah acutally we still have 4 days till it's really over?)
But yeah. This means July 1st will come faster. I can't say I don't care because I just don't wanna think about it and all. I still look back sometimes and,awww :)

I've been studying for the past few days (duh) like at home. Which is so suprising,like srsly.
I've been trying to stay home and study for the past 2 years and obviously,I failed to do so.
This year,I don't know why but like I prefer to stay home and study. Perhaps my laziness huh.
But yeah. I'm so proud of the way I am now. Yeah man. No Nlvls for me next year. Like fuck it if I'm advanced okay. And I've to be top for Chemistry and I want to. But actually.....hahah.

All the training I have has been quite okay. But kinda 'got kick' now. I ache more every training.
My bloody ankle's breaking that I've to wear my guard on everytime,and say,in school at times too. Such an irritant but I have no choice. I don't really wanna visit the doc but I've to. Woke up int he morning with legs that felt like wooooo man. Like really man. Felt as if I'm half paralyzed. =x I'm not kidding. I end up walking outta the house with an ankle guard. Didn't help much but I tried to walk less.

Andddddddddddddddddddd,
I'm so sick of my life. SERIOUSLY.
Ask anyone in the team,who's not sick of it.
I do the same thing everyday,over and over again.
Nothing new just trying to be better and something or improve something.
Don't kill me. Just bring me somewhere.
If I can,I would start this all over again.

Everybody's changing,why not learn accepting?
Instead of complaining,why not do less bitching?
And probably,the world would be a better place to live in.
This ain't the way humans are suppose to be.
We make ourselves who we are now,
who can we blame other than ourselves?
It's always one after another then why not stop and quit?
We probably can never do it but yeah,that's life.
Everybody's different in a way,compromise is da thing.
But then,if you can't do it,then why bother saying?


Sigh. But yeah. I just had to type all these out.
And I so need to get education overseas. Maybe not but I want to :D
(It's so fcking impossible for me to get a scholarship so blah)
This is my life. (Points to above's crap)

Happy birthday sista (love)
Ok byebyebye
SS time

:95 more dayss
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Hello people. Another boring day for me.
School was alright,I slept during Physics. Well most of them were sleeping so what's the big deal. I mean,Mr chee's a pretty....... teacher. Anyway. I'm sure I'll score in tmr's Math quiz. *Pls rmb to practise your F**** Math later Carolyn.
Went to Tm for lunch with Eug,Zb,Sarah and Jh and came back home(aunt's). I'm too tired :) Ahah. Cliques are da love yo.

This year's passing pretty quickly. I'm still trying to brush up on my fking Eng.
Seriously. I dislike Lee at times,such a pussy. But she's alright(not rly...)
I don't know if it's too early to plan for my next stop in life. A Jc or a Poly? I still don't know yet. An aim of 12 at least seem so hard. Avg of A2 per subj? That's not Carolyn. Blah.

Trg's sucha bore now. Feels more like a chore to me without the old team. Sigh.
I only get to see them in school and not on court anymore,):
Never mind,it's okay. We'll bring in the Champion trophy next year!

I love my boyfriend. Like seriously.
Probably the only one who can stand all my shit.
Like after that night,I was so fking (!!!) but yeah.
He just loves me,hahah. I love him too so :P
(YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY)
July hurry come ahhhhhhhhhhh.

k bye
:D

edit:
I just had to go there and . Wtf.
I hate myself for doing that. _l_
I blame myself.
"I will always be here.........."
K thnx ah. I'm fking petty.
I KNOW THAT MYSELF VERY WELL.
SHUTUP. Why am I so (!!!!).
K everybody fk off now. And I'm too petty for my own good.
I'll go calm myself down now.

ALL BURN AND DIE.
_l_

sorry for such a....post.
no one reads it anyway.
Breathless-Shayne Ward

Trg was pretty alright yesterday. We all had fun even though it's just the 6 of us but who cares,we're still playing as a team :) And not to forget,remedial for faggots and da clique. Actually there's only one faggot,to me.
I don't really have anything to blog about. Can't blame me. March holiday's pretty bleh.

Iceskating tomorrow with t.mates and a few Dmn guys.
I reckon it'll be fun,aha. It's my first time. But :D I know how to skate so lyv said that I'll be fine. And after that,trg ( AHHH!! ) So we've to meet as early as 10? Just for iceskating. But yeah. Dmn and NgeeAnn's trg time always clash so what to do,they have to give in and we have to,too.

Gonna go to lyv's to study. (But it's raining so heavily!)
Shall see eh. SEE YOU GUYS WHEN I'M BACK! :D

(And did I say how cool was that place in M'sia that I went on Monday morning at 4am? Ahah. )
Realise-Colbie Caillat

Ngee Ann's game over. Today's training - we're back to the excgirls(excl. Jm and now,Phebe)
I'm sorry Phebe,you've to be the only one. And I'm sorry,we end up being the biggest losers.

Team Nas Vb:
Thanks you all(the graduating sec4s),leaving us such wonderful memories even though it's less than a year we've been together.
We always go through pain and all during trainings. No matter how painful that fall is,we're still laughing. It's as if the pain wasn't there. We encouraged each other,hugged each other,bitched,cried and laughed. Seeing each other doing obscene actions and saying the most vulgar shitz. I really miss you all. You guys will be the greatest team I'll ever have,really. Now that it's gone,what can I say. All I have now is pieces and memories of you all.
I'll never forget what you guys have taught me-perserverance and most importantly,TUAN JIE.
It's been a long hard road for us,till now. It ain't easy for us,a batch of short asses,competing with all the giraffes. But I enjoyed all the times we've been together.

Isabel:
You'll be the one I'll find it hardest to forget. You were always there when I need someone to talk to. You never fail to make me happy. You stood up for me when Shirley "bullied" me. Buying me a Starbucks t-shirt other than that keychain,just for me. (I'm using that keychain now btw :)) Encouraging me and telling me what to do at times,be it on court or other things.

Shirley:
You taught me how to be a better spiker. You're the one who starts all the crazyness. You're the one sending all of us msgs saying how sorry and regretful you are. In my heart,you'll always be that crazy shirley :)

Chongmin:
Now you graduate alr can stop counting down! :D Always the one in court telling me how shit your first ball is. Both of us telling each other 50-50. I just like seeing you infront of me even though we always say we don't wanna see each other but yeah! :D

Zuoyi:
Hi owner,you have long legs,hands and hair. You're the one "pmsing" all the time. Haha,having some moodswing thing. Can never expect those kind and when you go crazy,you're really crazy and fun :) Be stronger next time! :)

Layping:
Mangosteeen! You bloody horny plastic head! No matter how horny you are,I'll still miss you.
Really. From the bottom of my heart.

Victoria:
I don't talk much with you but yeah,you're the one I see everytime you flip a point :)

-
All these words I typed are from the bottom of my (mur muring) heart.
Really. No words can express my love for you guys,really. And you all can never be replaced.
Forever Ngee Ann's Melon Fighter Team.
Love,Carolyn.
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GO CAROLYNNNNNNNN!
MAKE HISTORY WITH 12 ;D
And sorry boyfriend,I talk about vb too much =x
Love you anyway :)
Trg was alright today,as usual.
My ankle and knees got kinda screwed. My ankle was bad,very.
Hurt so much that I keep complaining. Ankle guards didn't help much. Or maybe they can't help a shit actually. Knees got screwed after the defending thing. But not as bad as my ankle. The moment I landed on the ground after spiking I can feel da pain man. That was the crap seriously.
Had swopped places with Cm for defending 'cos I'm always running towards the right side which is pretty fked up. Coach got so irritated(so am I)that he gave up and asked me to try defending at cm's.

Rushed to whitesands to get a faggy pair of shoes. Actually not really but umm just for the praying shitz so I don't care. The praying thing cost like 400bucks?! Can you believe it. It's just some fking joss sticks and tailsmen and all the bla for you to burn it. Mum's gonna spend another 300 on march 10 for this kinda crap for me again. I'd rather spend them on a few hundred tenyearseries.
So after that,I was told not to...
1,eat to much meat
2,wear the faggy pyjamas(sp?),wooden slippers(i forgot what do you call it-.-)
3,eat the pao,orange and meesua
4,not to go out tonight.
And my mouth got so tired from all the things I had to say. Repeat,repeating,repeated.

My night was kinda screwed after the call but I'm okay.
The love doesn't change ;D

Team Nas Vb,
I know it's gonna be a long hard road getting the champs again but I'll do my part and yeah,kick their asses(not realistically but yeah in my dreams probably). I'm partly to be blamed for the lost match that day. I shoud get over it but I want to apologize. I lost to myself before we lost the match,really. When the score hits 20 I told myself,we already lost half of the chance to win the match. At that time,the team was already broken up into two,just that some of you couldn't see. And I dare to say that the team wasn't even really ready to play at that very moment when we're gonna go on court. You could see how Shirley and Phebe going their seperate ways. But of course I ain't pushing the blame onto anyone in the team as I'm just saying so yeah. Very glad to see the whole team together at training today. You rarely get this kinda scenario in our team especially. Glad that everything worked out and all. We'll make it through,we will. I've always placed the team on top of anything else(other than my bf and family) and all the trainings I've been to and time I've spent with you guys are all worth it. We had so much fun together and shared laughter,tears and made each other pissed off and the piss-her-off sessions never lasted for more than an hour :)
We all spent less than a year,got to know each other so well.
You guys are one of the best things that've ever happened to me.
But can anyone tell me,how long more can I enjoy such fun with the same people? They say it's fate that we're together,a team. I love you all.

Melon Fighter Team,ACE!