At this very moment I feel very emotional. What crap right,like in the middle of the night?
My eyebags are..horrible. So I've to keep smiling when I'm out,so I can hide it.

Human need love(damnit,be it motherlove or bgr or w/e).
Tell me,who won't go after that person if that person knows that he/she loves him/her?

Since that night G* smsed me and I've been thinking.
And when I return to SG, I really gave give up after thinking so much.
Even though it's a love I can't leave behind after all,I have to.
Really.For some time after we broke up,I thought I was over him.
But I'm not. But I gave up on being jealous and all cause there's no point.
I only can hope he'll treat her right and yeah man.
Cause he said, if I don't fight for it then I won't get anything.
I said I'm tired cause I fought for G* so hard in the past,I got it.
In the end,I still lost it back to her. Nah but at least I use to have him.
Contented..but 9months..a bit that hard to do it but I'm fine now.
He treat me so harshly and I hated him and I've forgotten about him.
Maybe then,that's why he talked to me in such way during that period of time.
Sighs,nothing last forever yo.

Now,it feels so hard to find love.
(Wait,I'm just trying to say it's difficult).
I'm pampered and princess-y,spendthrift too.
So shit right. Can't change..rahhhh.
Rah and I suppose S* won't be online tonight.. sighs.
Maybe he's busy with his attatchment and training,rah.
Just wait for him to sms me yo.
Why ain't you the one asking me out?
I'm turning introvert-y.Really.I've no idea why's this happening but.
I just don't wanna say so much or let so much out now.
Being an extrovert for years,realised -nothing.

I miss you.
(So hard to express this feeling,cause no one compares to you)