Went PP with Firstlove and Fishballs. My bf, Eugenia joined us.

Spent like 40bucks plus on the sweet machine.Lol.
Won ourselfs a big bag of sweets,upload pic soon.

Then went Cephas house and slacked.
I like his house,heh.

Then went 85 market to eat with them and my dad.

I'm done blogging,so damnit lazy nowadays.
I'm back.Not from thailand but KL.
Took Konsortium and met mum there.

I spent alot and got like only a few things back.
I love my flats,heeeeee.
Feel so gay wearing it. :)

I've no idea what to blog,time for self-reflection(i'm serious).


It's really a love I can't put behind me.
What do you mean by I keep on clinging onto things that are not suppose to be mine?
If you've got the balls,type your name. Thanks.

---

Went training early with Lixuan and training wasn't thaaat bad.
Quite slacky today,hope I can jump higher next training after I jump that thing just now.
I've to work hard for what I want and I will.(I don't wanna be sitting on the bench the next time!)

Then went supper to celebrate sheryl's birthday. At bedok simpang.
Good food but cost quite alot too,heh.
Then like 11 went Whitesands and eat again(much more like we don't wanna go home so yeah) and I cabbed home like not long ago.

Thanks J.! (For the bag)

And oh,don't you hate humans sometimes(even though you're one).
They don't know things and they'll talk behind you and when you know,you feel all f-ed up.
Really.They just say and say and when it spreads around,people think you're a bitch or something.Hah,human.What on earth is that?! Lol.

Okay,I love my mum even though she scold at times.
But yeah.She's gonna buy me a Lv wallet or smth if I PASS(and not get good grades) at the end of the year,hurrrrr :)
I think mum's gonna book the tickets today and we're gonna go over and meet her there to some town in Thailand or something. Heee :)
Cost like 400 over per ticket but hah. I'm gonna go shopping!
I'll be back without my mum,cause I wanna go training.
I don't wanna lose my place there,shit. I'm so afraid now that I can't play when I go back.
Cause Coach already choosed someone else.

Shiiiit. I don't wanna sit on the bench at the end of the year!
Rah,waiting for mum to call to confirm if I'm gonna fly there today.
(And this screws up my plans with kenniee).

I love my friendddds :)

No matter what I do,I can't turn back time.
Went to meet Jun,Zx and ruban to collect report book. Mr Hazmi couldn't find my book and I've forgotten I left it at home, sian away. But still manage to get my results slip.
5 U-grades yo,cool >< .

Went to eat and pool after that.
Ph and all were there and um..went back to school meet mum there cause my sis,and you know,Mr Fong.

He was being a goddamn asshole bustard to me when I was there.
Asshole,go find some magnifying glass if you can't see clearly.
All the way I was giving him some total fake smile -.-;;

Then came home and bathe and all went for facial(-.-) and trimmed my brows. :X
Met Sheryl and went courts for dinner.

I'm damn tired now,veryyyyyy.
I'll be working for my aunt,hurrr :)
But mum's the one who's gonna pay me,cause the working place is volunteer-thing.
Heh.I love mum and she went overseas already T.T
I'm fine.
Die at training tomorrow yo. I've got breathing difficulties,shit-o.

Supper with sheryl cause it's her birthday toomorrow.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOO SAUYUE SHERYL :)
Much love!

Night all. :D
Finally,it's the end and we're having a one month longgggg holidayy.
Baked cupcakes but...I somehow screwed it up.
Like,contains the texture of cake and biscuits.
Okay nevermind.

Went out with Lx :)
With the 2 E(s) .
Funny asses,I was laughing and laughing dammnnnn loudly.
Okay nevermind,hur.
I hate the part when we're walking back to E's house.
E. didn't tell us there's a bus there,made us walk damn far.
Crap.Was perspiring like no tomorrow.

Tomorrow mum's not gonna go get report book with me,
so I'll go with my darling friends :)
Hohohee, then shall go lunch with sheryl and Zb.

Guy: This shall be our last lunch.
Girl: -Looks at guy and said: oh.
(Girl thinks to herself: Then I won't want this lunch to end and time stop here forever)

I started to think back again,total crap.
I love my friends and no one else.

Gonna go Kopi with Kennieeee someday yo. :)
Like finally, cause someone's busy with his girlfrienddd,hee.
And E's is having training now with the 2nd E and other teammates. T.T

Okay,seeya guys around!
Enjoy your holidays!

Cindy get well soooon :)!
Love youuuu.
Training wasn't very good yesterday.
I was veryvery exhausted. Rah. But somehow enjoyed it.

Felt so lethargic today but still alright.
Played for Nleague and I scored the second one! ;D
Whether is it by luck or not, I still scored.
Stupid E. ! Kept showing off that he scored till he didn't want to already. >:(
Then wanted to go Sakae for late lunch,in the end, end up at Central.
Hur,cause I like the food there.But the drink I ordered was rather sucky.
:X

Talked to Jm,I've no idea what else can we do but wait and see her answer.
Maybe she'll change her mind.But,not much we can do now.
What's does the hard work and effort we put in together to get nationals Champion mean
to her now? What do we mean to her now?
I just wanna let you know,if we don't care,we won't waste our time and tears on you.
Really.We love you.

I'm gonna have a good night,not-.-
My back and legs or rather,the whole body's aching due to the training we had yesterday.
T.T goodnight people.


And...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING BG,JUNWEI!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIC! (Yesterday).

I love people who loves me ;D
Yay! I'm the the piano class already and it'll start during the holidays ;D
Okay.Work hard carolyn.You've to make it this time.I will.

I somehow had a nice day :)
Went Mac with Xuan and Eug then head to Presbyterian high.
Seniors won and awhile later we left.
But me and xuan came back for the combine school team's match.
I think they lost :/ okay,no idea.

Hur. Ds went offline,pfffft.

And oh,thanks xuan for lending me your shoulder to sleep on!
For like few time already yo.
Hurrrr,See ya guys around!
Laaaast weeek already! :D

Cause Each Broken Heart Will Eventually Mend
As The Blood Runs Red Down The Needle And Thread
I miss my ahkong,again.
Talk to Joan about it and my eyes went watery.
I really miss him,alot.

Went school for lit. bullshit and went bedok85market there for food.
I'm like some hungry ghost,hah,but I still ate little even though I order'd like quite alot.
Wasteful! :@ Hm. Then went to Tm interchange for 22.

Training was good,not exactly.
I hope I'll be playing spiker's place.
Like my dream place to play since last year.
Rah.Blocker not bad also anyway.

Then went the coffeeshop for dinner with team mateys and went home with xuan.
Tired like shit and going presby. high for volleyball matches.

I'm happy cause I'm talking to (he and she).
HAHA :)
Went to the Mandai crematorium for Ahkong's...I teared cause we're not suppose to cry.
I keep thinking about those times when ahkong's not gone yet.The last time I saw him at the hospital he was getting better.Until one day mum tell me that he's waiting for death in the hos.
And I talked to my close friends that day on Zx's birthday. And monday,it happened.
People come and go.We just have to let them go.It's just so..difficult to believe that ahkong just pass away like that.

I miss you ahkong,may you rest in peace.
Hope you won't suffer as much as you did here.
I love you.

Went dinner with Jun,Zx and Eric @ Changi Village.
NasiLemak was good. Pineapple sucks.
Hur. Azrina called me T.T
And make my group go back for lit. skit ):
And training tmr @ Nyjc from 3.30-9.30.
Let's all die tmr.I bet it's all ti neng.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAOLIANNNN ! ;D
Haven't been blogging or going on because I'm always at my granddad's funeral.
And thought..I should really cherish people around me.
And on better terms with dad again,I think.

I'm very tired.Been sleeping at 12 plus every night.
Sucks. Thanks for J. for accompanying me.
I felt bad still.Rah.

and I'm very tired now,veryvery.
went for juniors training and I only did 1 thing and my thighs are damn..pain as in aching pain.
and not going training today T.T
and no school for me tomorrow.

rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Woke up by a call,saying that my granddad passed away.
Yeah,mum told me he was gonna die sooner or later in the hospital.
But just.sighs.whaat can I do.
I don't look like I'm sad,do I ?
Rahhhhh.

Met up with Jun and ruban because I need to buy some shirt.
Then ruban left for trg then met up with Zx.

Shopped and spent like a hundred over with mum and all's stuff.
Then went starbucks and slacked. I was laughing non stop.
They both were much..irritated.Hur,okay maybe only Zx.
Junny wasn't much affectedddd cause he know me too well x).

A part of me is sad and I'm still laughing and laughing.
I can't cry, feels like bullshit.

Ah,I'm gonna play for Nleague for my class for the first time tomorrow.
Junny asked me not to Ps him.So I'm gonna be nice :D
Pictures on Zx's birthday@ Clarke Quay.

I love them all :)

Girlfriends!

Pictures on Juan's birthday.

Okay not cute at all :@

No plates,Miss kwek forgotten about it. Lol.


Ended with group picture ;D

NgeeAnn,Ace.

Come to me-Jesse McCartney.



Under the silver stars,
Right where he broke your heart.
Girl you know, I'd give you everything.
I wanna hold your hand,
And say the words he never said.
I'll make you promises you can believe.

[Chorus]
Let me be the one,
Telling you it's alright
Sharing the smiles and tears you cry.
Let me be the one,
Loving you when you're weak.
For all of the strength you need,
You can come to me.

When you're down and you feel so lonely
Turn around, you can come to me
When you're down baby, i will be the only
Come to me

You can just be yourself,
'Cause I don't want nobody else.
All of your secrets are safe with me.
For the kind of love you can trust,
For more than just a crush,
Baby, won't you just come to me?

[Chorus]
Let me be the one,
Telling you it's alright
Sharing the smiles and tears you cry.
Let me be the one,
Loving you when you're weak.
For all of the strength you need,
You can come to me.

When i got you in my arms
Say it's where you wanna be (where you wanna be, yeah)
'Cause girl i'm down on my knees
Promising my heart oh, my heart
...

Maybe,someday the one I love would come tell me all this.
But let's not think to much. :)
I've been sleeping late for few nights,which is bad.
But I can't help it. I just wanna sleep late.
I'm ): ,sighs.

If it's love that keeps us breathin'
Gives us something to believe in
Is it fear that makes us blind?
Tell me, why is love so hard to find?
All I know is when you find it
Even earth can feel like you're in heaven
Tell me now, unlock the secret
Help us all to find the hidden treasure
Happy mothers day!
I love you mummy,more than anything else.
Cause your love is the sweetest.
To me,you're the greatest.
Thanks for everything.

Happy birthday Kim :)
I miss You.
Very much.
(If you know who you are. I left you words @ my priv. blog)

Burn carolyn.Burn and die.

Now Junwei's finally back, wheee.
One nice asshole,I'm his mother-* princessss.
Muaha,I think I ate too much sweets :@

Night allllll.
I'm so depressed inside,not showing much on the outside.
Rah.
Went to celebrate Zx's birthday, wanted to pool but zzz.
Then went clarke quay,Zx went to play the Bungyy!
Lol,we were all shouting and goddamn shocked when the bungy went up.
Then ate there and slacked till 11+
I reach home at 1Am plus with them all sending me back.

Sat along the riverside or whatever you call it.
We all said everything we wanted to say and almost all cried.
Good times and bad times together.
I love my friends,very much.

And went movie with * :)
200pounds beauty like finally!
IT's good and I cried like shit when it's the part when she confessed every thing and said that she forsaked her friend and father. She went off stage to hug her father and I cried like mad.
Rah.><

My dad pissed me off very badly.
Forget it.

I won't be blogging here so regularly anymore.
I'm gonna be a happy girl no matter what.
Nothing's gonna bring me down.
People might think I suck,then let it be.

(^^):
One last one, I swear I didn't bitch about the one I blogged about.
There's no point in doing all this, if you think that I'm in the wrong then fine.
I never said that I'm not wrong,but,I didn't bitch about her.

I'm tired of doing this,veryyy.
...
I didn't went jogging because I'm veryyy tired.
Uncle came to help us move the things to his store first and um.
Mum brought the brownies they sell at Ikea.
Heh.They're good though :)

I'm moving to my aunty's house for the time being.
I feel..): cause for some reasons.
I'm meeting Sylvia wifey to talk to her tomorrow.
Sighs. I've never expect my life to turn this way.
Cause it's so dramatic and I use to feel sad when I watch shows that are like that.
And now,it's happening to me. I guess I can't say much already.
Thanks Gerald wong, for not setting his phone silent mode tonight.
Cause he's afraid that I can't find anyone to talk to at night when I can't sleep.

I love you daddy.

T.T
Exams are finally over!
Science was rather easy but..I'm afraid that I screw it up.
Kind of expected what are gonna come out and yeah. They came out.
I'm so glad that they're over! More of sleep,less of studies.
And oh, trainings coming up T.T

I'm gonna start losing some weight already.
From today onwards,I'm gonna jog at MJC with Xuan and Juan.

Went starbucks with my Team without Joan and Min.
Talked and stoned. Lol,then they went Pok's house while I went home.
Cause I'm tired and thus,I nearly missed my bus stop.

I love my mum and dad.
I love my darling.
I love my team mates.
I love Jesse McCartney! :D

You can do it Carolyn,slim downnnnn !

(^^):
Since when did I break a friendship between me and someone just for the guy I like?
Yeah,whatever,you're like against me now and I've nothing to say.
They hate me okay,yes they do thats why they bitch about me.
Yesyesyes,I'll be glad if you get off my blog and commentbox.
Since you say everyone know what kind of person I am,then let it be.
If you think I'm a bitch,or slut or whatever to you then thats it.
Cause I'm the worst girl you've ever seen.
So you seen ALL types of girl before?
What makes you say that I'm the worst?
I swear when I get pissed,you say it's an excuse then let it be.
You don't know me. Butt off.
Tell her-Jesse McCartney
If you see my girl
Just tell her I miss her smile
Tell her I'm counting the minutes
Gonna see her in a little while
I know when she
Holds on to me
She's the one thing that I could never live without
Oh, oh, oh, oh
And tell her I love her


Went to starbucks and talked for 2hours with Eug,Xuan and Jiamin.
Then they came my house to like- eat,talk,slack and study.
And Xuan's being godddammmnnn irritating,like very.

For the first year,I think I screw up my Chinese paper 2.
Cause it's so difficult that I don't really understand the passages.
And out of 10questions, I only know 4 of them and others I just randomly choose a number and fill it in.
I feel so sorry for myself cause I haven't been studying for chinese and sighs.
I'm gonna fail it like nuts and mum's gonna scream at me.
But the paper IS difficult :@,perhaps.

I didn't study for my science like it's tomorrow.
The laaaaast paper.Yes,I'm gonna make it through and I'm gonna pass my 4main subjects.
I must pass my main subject.Or I'll kill myself,T.T

Hi Darling,I missed you since you've been away.
When I reach home you went offline,I'm just a little too late >:(.
Rah.Nevermind,come online quick!!
Heez.I like tonight.

Gerald wong told me something,so damn,funny ;D

And Lyvia's gonna be as irritating as lixuan.
#5 [c=36][b][u]lyviaa[/u][/b][/c]♥'I must love a loathed enemy [c=13]Campylobacter Jejuni[/c] says:
comeon lah
#5 [c=36][b][u]lyviaa[/u][/b][/c]♥'I must love a loathed enemy [c=13]Campylobacter Jejuni[/c] says:
say that i'mhot!!
C.V- Irreplaceablez. says:
LYVIA IS HOT.
#5 [c=36][b][u]lyviaa[/u][/b][/c]♥'I must love a loathed enemy [c=13]Campylobacter Jejuni[/c] says:
HAHAH NO!!
#5 [c=36][b][u]lyviaa[/u][/b][/c]♥'I must love a loathed enemy [c=13]Campylobacter Jejuni[/c] says:
lyvia the GAY is hot
#5 [c=36][b][u]lyviaa[/u][/b][/c]♥'I must love a loathed enemy [c=13]Campylobacter Jejuni[/c] says:
hahah
C.V- Irreplaceablez. says:
OKAY,SHE IS.GAY AND HOT=LYVIA.
See what I mean?

Cause in the morning lixuan just irritated me with the Chiobu photo,but I end up playing along with her.Hahah.

I'm done with my private blog at Xanga, hoohmmm.
And I love my dino kongkong ;D
Then chickenrice asshole is just an chickenrice asshole , heeee.

Okay. I love everyone including my darl ;D

study tmr wish me luck k . hehee
i dont wna fail my cheena.
Another you-Cascada.
cause i can breathe again dream again
I'll be on the road again
like it used to be the other day
now i feel free again so inocente
cause someone makes me whole again for sure
I find another you

...

To (^^) who commented in my CommentBox:

When I went haloscan,I already knew it there'd be such comment.
Okay,then let me say this.

Do you know me or,that person I'm talking about?
If you know,then maybe you're the one with her.
But,I'm not the only one who xxx her,okay?

If I'm suppose to do self-relflection,then I think the more she should.
And oh,who says I'm blaming people.
Cause you don't know what I tell myself & others.
You don't know me personally,right.

You think I don't do self-relfection and care how people look at me?
Aw.You're just commenting crap about me :)

When do people swear?
When they're goddamn pissed and angry right?
If you don't, then good for you.
And didn't you read my previous,previous post?
I said: "I've decided to be a better person after so much things I thought through.
No swearing and bitchings unless I really have to."
Can't you understand by this?

And(laughs very loudly),why should I be jealous of my boyfriend's friends?
I don't know them and don't even wanna know them.
I have my own friends.

Who doesn't know they have their own flaws and all?
You? No right?
Don't you know I've low self-esteem?
(That's why I say,don't judge people by anywhere outside,not even how they post in their blog.
Cause you don't know them.)
Then how would I think myself like- ohh..I'm flawless?
Very...ridiculous.

And I don't think she's at fault.
Really.All girls bitch and all,just never seen one who bitch like that.

And thank you for that comment even though I've deleted.
I don't feel insecure with my boyfriend.You don't have to worry.
If you know me,then I'm just plain.."lucky" to have such a friend.
If not,bye and we'll never meet again:)!
...

I'm afraid I screw up my Maths Paper I&II.
Even though I've asked Sheryl and all for the answers,I'm right but I'm still afraid.
Never got so scared before ._. Hmm.
Then paper 2 made me damn T.T .
I didn't do my 5mark question cause I couldn't figure it out.
So I left it blank and slept.
Woke up with painful jaaaw,I don't know how I sleep.

Went Macs with Darl,Xuan and Cephas.
Then LongJohn cause Xuan wanted to "see" Xuanting!
Lol,but anyway end up in starbucks.
Again T.T, I've been there straight 4-5 days already.
Maaaan. I think tomorrow I'll be there again. Shitz.

Then came home and stoning now.
Lol. Okay. I'm gonna go create my private blog now.
Not that I can bitch there,just I can say how I feel.
Yeah.

I've really made up my mind and be a better person.
And love people who loves me and .. maybe people I dislike.
Stop the hate and love everyoneeeee. No harm.
My day started out good.
End up with total bullshit.

I'm very happy cause You came to pissed me off(:
I still love you very much,yes very much.
I don't even know Vincent's friends well or I don't even know them,
sooo, I don't need them to love me or whatever.
I've got my friends,awwww (:
Since you've got your friends too,then go to them.
:D
I still love you all the same.

People just don't think about themselves or how people look at them.
Ah,I know you don't care,hurrrr.
You hate me? Oh,so sad then!

-

Study again.With usual people.
Went PastaMania for lunch.
Then studying.
I regret for not asking darl to come.
Damn.
But anyway right,I'm still happy T.T

Went Sheryl's house for the thingythumy.
So damn-.- stresssedddd.
But I'm still happppppy.

I LOVE VINCENT, andddd...
If You think Vinny loves you,then I think he loves me more than you by ALOT(times[x] don't know how many times).
Yeah.And again,I LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT.

JOAN,MUAHAHAHA!
Ride of your life-Oliver James.
Come on,here's your chance.
Don't let it slip right through your hands,get ready for ride of your life.


...

I hope I could be contented with my life now,
but no,with such people who bitch fulltime- I think it's abit of disgrace have the same sex as her.
even people get pissed at her,she still continue to.
Okay lah. People agree and disagree. Whatever.
I hope you know who are you and stop doing all this cause you're spoiling your goddamn image and all even though you're rich and lead a good life,so?

I'm vulgar and I swear alot.
This is my blog and you don't like it, you should leave.

Met up with wifey outside Starbucks and darl came.
Talked from 1.30 till about 7 or so.
Talked about everything we can think of.
About our life and all.
I haven't been swearing these days and I let everything out today.
Until my tears are like coming out.
Was suppose to study anyway,but I think it's time for me to let out things.

I'm gonna stop swearing and all.
Don't bitch cause I don't wanna end up like YOU.
So I'm gonna be nice.No point being angry(:

Maybe I should say:"Aww,I love you! Stop bitching(:"
Yeah,I've nothing for you to bitch about anyway.
No,you wanna bitch then do it baby!

Always look on,the bright sidee of life(:

I hate you like bullshit but I wanna love you.
Cause I'm tired of hating crap.

I LOVE ALL OF YOU.
And I hope cephas is not sad,cause he sound like.

I've decided to be a better person after so much things I thought through.
No swearing and bitchings unless I reall have to.
Alright,goodnight people.


Hey darl.
I know it's abit stupid to say all that or let you know all that in the noon.
It's just how I feeeel,but I love you :)
And oh, I appreciate the stuffs you thought me even though sometimes I'm stupid enough to don't understand but I know you want me to pass midyear and all.
Thanks for evrything that you did for me for this very short time that we're together.
I love you.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYLVIA WIFEYYYY ;D
I LOVE YOU LIKE HELLL !
& I enjoyed today ._. !
FUCK LAH. I GOT SCAM OR WHATEVER BY THIS WHAT SO EVER MR KEOW.
CHEEBYE.

I'm seriously finding the condo's there or anywhere in this area.
Damn.Fucktard.
Juan's birthday was cool.
I've nothing else to say about her birthday.
I love Yang Sook Juan as much as she love me.

Hello Geraud yeo?
(If you think it's you then let it be. There are fucking alot more geraud yeo outside).
You're not that big fuck to want me to go to your fucking house to collect my bag.
You make me feel like swearing at your fucking face.
Fuck you. You're so damn fucking rich to buy another one for yourself.
You still got that fucking dick to bring it to school.
Yes.You're not gonna return it to me right.
Then the bag's mine now and I can do whatever I wanna do with it.
I'm gonna spoil it infront of your fucking face.Who cares you care or not.
I wonder why she chose such a fucking loser boyfriend.
Knn.Cb.Fuck you asshole.You're just another fucktard.
Why not tell people:Sorry,I'm gay.
Oh,I forgotten you're just another pathetic asshole.
Who hmm,somehow abuses your own girlfriend.
I doubt you'll admit that you did that to me? (:
Nevermind,losers are like that.
For I see you in school,I think you're more of a stranger to me.
Yeah man. You must be thinking: Let's get the party started !
_l_ are coolz. And that one's for you. Since you like it so much.

FUCK YOU GERAUD YEO.
YOU'RE ONE MOTHER FUCKING GAY.
SOME PATHETIC LOSER.
WHO DOESN'T WANTS TO RETURN YOUR EXGIRLFRIEND'S BAG.
SOME FUCKTARD YOU ARE.

I didn't mean to this in my blog,you made me to.
I'm a slut to you and I should fuck off.
Yes ah! I fucked off already. You should fuck off farfar too.
andoh,i think you look fucking gay with that watch (smiles politely).
(I dirtied my blog again).
...

I'm feeling damn sick now.
I've no idea why. And I get pissed very easily.
Yes,my damn pms.

I know I shouldn't complain so much.
I know he's very nice,very.
I just feeel like..something's missing.
ah, I miss you anyway darl.

I'm tired for now and for today,very.
But I'm still waiting for him T.T
I wannna wanna sleep.

Andy ho is so not funny for god's sake.
French lessons-.-xxx

Okay fine.I'm waiting.
Bored like farkkkkk.

Bye fuck to all assholes.

On second thought,I don't wanna spoil it and listen to J.
Why bother be angry at such losers?
:)

Make my day with something reddd :)!
Tuition wasn't like tuition.I keep walking around the house.
Then sat in the kitchen till the tuition end when I went back.
Hahah :) What a...haha.

T.T I'm damn bored now and kennie's with his girlfriend,rahh.
Still asking him out for Starbucks. K nevermind. (:

Waiting for time to pass then can go for Juan's birthday.
Lol,I got lied by them too when they're suppose to lie to Juan only-.-

Anyway..
Why the hell must vincent lose his phone,can't even talk to him.
T.T okay shut up.

Hi darling,if you see this then good for you.
Cause I'm missing you like fuck now T.T
Yes like fuck.
Awwww.But can't do anything so I'm gonna shut up and miss you.

I WANT A RED BIG CRUMPLER BAGGG!
Roah.

Okay I wanna go starbucks for coffeee now.
Shit you all who don't wanna go,hahaah.
Kidding la.

LOVE Y'ALL :D

And oh, if happen to live in whitewater(the condo's thats like beside westplaza)can you please help me check if there are any more apartments or smth available for renting and let me know?
PLEASSEEEEE. I'm serious and thanks if you do. Just tag my board.
Pms is killing me.
I hate!

I forget yesterday was kennie's birthday! ):
Happy birthday kenneth! :D

And tomorrows Andrew's.
Happy birthday Andrew Lim! :)

And monday's Sylvia wifey's !
Heeeheee, so many people having birthday this month T.T

Tomorrow celebrating Juan's birthday@ Swensen's.
YAY.Stupid hamster you're 14 already like me! :D
Hahah , the rest are still so young(:
Other than you,me&eugenia.
Weeeeeeeee.
Grow taller hamsterrrrr! ;}

...

My grandad's in the hospital,awaiting for death to come for him.
I saw him weeks ago,still fine.Thinking he'd be out of the place already.
But no.This time he's waiting for death.No,he won't be okay already.
Last year he survived,I still hope he would this year even though I doubt so.

I wonder why the fuck do I have such a fuck'd up dad.
Even though he's still my dad I still dislike him alot.
No,not that he doesn't give me money.
It's the way he treats my mum.
Fuck you for being such an asshole.
It's not I hate you,you made me hate you.
Since you and mum are off already so fuck you fucktard.
Yes.I'm gonna get some karma shit now.
But I'm scolding you cause I love my mum and I hate you.
Never even expect you to say all that to mum.

Tuition @ 8.30Am tomorrow. T.T
Forget it,it's the last already.

I finally know the song!
Hahah.I'm so "fast" right darl! :D

YourCall-Secondhand serenade:


Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
I'm listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Because every breath that you will take
while you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)
Thanks very much, darling!
For your elec. dictionaryyyyy :)
I use it to find my chinese name. Lol,I've forgotten how to write it.
And most of the chinese words , forgotten.
I wonder am I still a cheena bitch. Heh.

Went breakfast with my darling girlfriends and went off studying with darl,pok and xuan.
Xuan's rather quiet today and it's a good thing ok!
She's hardly so quiet but she's still noisy. Rahhh.
Coffee+Study+Xuan's laughter = Headache. Really.
I've been at starbucks drinking coffeee omg, how much did I spend on coffee during this exam period ?!

From morning 11Am, study till 3. We left and I was at Cs I saw my wifey! :D

I hope Vivan's okay :/
And someone told Merabel something very ridiculous.
I'm with another butch while I'm having a boyfriend. -.-

Okay shut.I don't feel like blogging today :)
I lovelovelove all!

Sookjuan's birthday celebration tomorrrrowwww.
School's so short today! :D
Yeah then Joan disturbed me when I woke up from my sleep.
Tried to unbuckle my bra,but woo,she partially failed.( Lol,what english!)
And I bite my lips twice already,damn..

Then talked to my bodyguards for awhile then went canteen and sat down to talk.
Haahah, I love my bodyguards.
I've to move house and might be moving to Marine Parade,(:/): .
Weeeeheeee,I can go home with my friends and darling!
Wong said he'll go to school with me ok! And probably Cephas too.
Lol.Nah,if I wanna go with darl,I've to walk quite far out.
Okay shut up.Haven't happen yet. Lol.

I fucking threw the Puma jacket he bought for me @ first month when we're together.
In the dustbin where he can see from where he's sitting.
Yeah. I don't care he saw it or not,he doesn't care anymore.
Hate me for all I care. You've your darling and I've mine.
We came together and you choosed to leave alone and go on seperate ways, there was nothing I could say.

For all I care now it's just my darling,parents,studies,volleyball and friends.
Others are just total bullshit ok.

Darling went studying with me and Lixuan and Yonghao.
Lol. Yeah & he's gonna study with me again tomorrow! :D
Finally a straight 2days with me.
Cause I hardly spend time with him you see. Thats why I'm happy :)
The lesser time we spend together,I cherish it more.
I mean.I cherish other times.Just if we meet everyday you'll think its not so important anymore.Like now, one week=2-3 times together, still fine :)

Goodluck for my chinese paper one tomorrow,I'm so screwd up!
Rahhhh. I love everyone who loves me :D

No,I'm not gonna study tonight.
I'm gonna sleep.
I've been sleeping in class for this two days.
Badbad.
Ipw and we've nothing to do already.

Last night I broked down when I talked to darl about everything.
I mean,things that made me very stress.
-Biiiiig sigh-
I'm really trying very hard to study,seriously.
And I think I've put on weight already.
Dad doesn't wanna give me extra money cause I finished my 2days allowance in one day.
And left with 3pathetic bucks. With another 10bucks for my Ezlink. Roahz.

Every year's exam,I tell myself,I will study.
Somehow I did. But this year was the hardest I studied cause I missed alottt of lessons due to volleyball. Thats why I'm working twice harder than last year.
I studied,and all my results turned out to be bullshit.
Like my maths test, I got 3 straight Zeros.
My chinese, from 11 to 4.5.
See?
I told myself I can't dissapoint my mum. Since I was in primary3 she got dissapointed every year.
Now you see me saying this,next final year exam we shall see.

Darl's really very nice.
Yeah.He said he's gonna help me with my work later.
(:

But.I really don't know what to do with my mum and dad.
I can't say much here.But.Why must everything turn out like that.?
I'm the only one at home who knows so much,at the same time- I can't say out a single bullshit.
Isn't this.Shit?
Mum said her own stuffs and so did dad.
I don't know who to believe cause it's so hard to.
Like what, imagine one day your dad said he killed someone, you think convincing meh?
(Not my dad kill someone ok,just example).
See.Rahh.

Mum's gonna find a house around Marine Parade.
Coolz.So I can go home with my friends heeeeehe.
But my teammates):

I must be happy today.
Yes. Nothings gonna bring me down- todayyyyyyyy~

Well, it's not the time to breakdown.
It's not the time to breakdown.

On our way to airport.

Changi Airport mugging, Lol, I like darren siolz.
So damn...gentlemen :) He sound so man , weehee!

Lixuan! :D
Although she's bloody irritating at times but she's so nice to share her music with me.
Hehe, we share everything right! Muahaaha.
Anw,Iloveyouso :)
Fridayyyy ahh Lixuan!

School was- dreadful today.
I slept during maths,and playing my tennis game in my phone :)
Got damn fucked up though. I'm very tired today,very.
I slept at 1Am last night just to finish the damn notes for geog.
Then during Cheena lesson,I didn't do the comphrehension.
Not even when MrHeng and Sun lao shi told me to keep my notes.
I don't like chinese anymore, dislike it intensely ok!
Grahhhhh.

Gsp@LongJohn.
I did my maths work till I slept.Woke up with bloody red eyes.
Uhhuh,you see how tired I am. Thanks to Mr Vincent x).
And I waaaas really very tired until I really fell asleep on the bus.
See.Rah.I'm so ):

Anyway.Darling lost his phone and I can't talk to him now.
Goddamnit.Now his computer is down and can't talk to him anywhere.
Fuck that. I don't know when then we can start talking.

My moodswings are swing harder this few days.
Damn,maybe Pms coming soon?
No idea.

I cried during Chinese lesson while doing my geog notes& mum smsed me.
Fuck whatever is happening to my schoolwork or family shit.
I'm fuck'd up stress. No matter how hard I study,it's still bullshit ok.

And I'll say all over again:
If you guys out there who thinks that I'm fucking flirt to get a boyfriend so quickly,
you'd better find a damn it hard wall and butt god damn it hard against it.
you don't know anything just shut up.

Last:
I LOVE MY FRIENDS ALOT, REALLY:D
And my darling boyfriend(who's so manual) , oops.
Went Airport to study again. Xuan accompanied me there.
Met with Joan,Junwei,Ruban,Cephas,Wong,Zhaoxing&Eric.
Then ate at Pacific coffee and wasted my 5bucks on the Egg potato salad when the original's nicer and I always eat that. Rah.
But in the end went to Teammates and Sheryl. Zhaobin and Yinghui came to join.
Somehow Chaulin,Darren&some 2R1 guy are there too.
Got chased wherever we went to study cause it's a public holiday.
Sure there were quite alot of Ngeeann students though.

Then we didn't have a choice but to study at the viewing mall.
Loads of people were there studying too.
Eugenia went to take a number from this girl and randomly point a guy and say its for that guy.
I think she pointed to Chaulin, Haha.
I went over and asked how old was she, she's 16!
And Chaulin' only like 14?!

Then wrote notes for the whole of time. Since 4 till 8.
Until my darling came,omgod,I swear he took damn long when he said it's only half an hour.
Damn.Very tired,cold,and was having a damn headache.
Now he pangseh me cause no information of Ss is going into his head.
Lol.He said he was gonna sleep at 2 and I'm prepared to stay up and study too.
Then now he went sleeping cause he can't study and I'm halfway. Damn.
(I'm forgiving,yes I am. I must be a nice girlfriend.Just make it through this time, Carolyn :))

I like studying now,heh.
Not very much but I'm still fine, weewhoooooo!

Now my love life's very good,really.
I'm balancing my time with friends and darl,and darl's too with his studies too.
My boyfriend is not a replacement,I didn't have a boyfriend just to spite him,I'm not so flirty or desprate to have a boyfriend but just you don't have to know so much :)
I just love my boyfriend and yes shut up.

My damn captain,xueer-roxanne has a bloody goddamn good memory brain.
She wrote down all the things in the geog book and she memorised them.
Don't even need the book now.She wrote it all in the paper.
Why the hell am I not like her, grahhhh!

Nevermind.I can pass my midyear,yes I can.
I don't wanna dissapoint my mum even though she's being a bitch to me right now.
But still. I must work hard for my darl's sake at least.

Me: I'll try and sleep at two but I'm sorry if I can't.(Or smth like that).
Darling said: It's okay if you cant baby,appreciate everything that u did for me =)

I love you darl, reallllyyyyyy :)

Goodnight world,I'm gonna sleep.
I really hope baby get through this and pass his Ss and Amaths D:
I'm going to studyyyy with Xuan and all at the Airport.
Yes ah! :D

Then darl's having his double tuition today):
Aww. Nevermind. I'm missing him very muchh.

Anw. I love my friends and I love everyone who loves me :D
See ya'll at night or something!

MUCH LOVE.