I haaaad a good day :)

After school went to Tmart for lunch.
Before that was detained by MrHeng for one hour and a half.
I escaped when it was only two. Jueyin keep shouting my name but I still ran:)
My darling teammates were all waiting for mee so yeh.

Then after lunch went back and saw something I hate to see.
But I'm fine :)

And Gsp , I didn't study cause I've been studying quite alot.
): Tomorrow study again. With Fishballs and all :)

Saturday celebrating Juan's birthday!
Heeeeee.

Lixuannnn :
I love you to the maxcore & you make my world a better place with your markers and music in your phone. I love you and you're very nice even though you make me pissed that day but who cares ! Hahah. Weeeee!~

I love my darling more :)

Goodnight.I'm gonna study! :D
I've got back from studying at the airport with darl and all.

Started my day with a damn tuition.
Late for half an hour,cheeefaiiiiii. ( naoiewfjnjrwbfi! )
Then started good and ended good.

Met Sheryl and Zhaobin at Century.
(One week ago,sheryl sent me to Suntec for my first date.
One week later,sheryl sent me to airport for me to meet my darl.
Aww,I love sheryl and all my friends! :))
Then Eugenia came.
And off to airport. Met Yinghui at Tanah Merah, Wanyu then popped out.

Then CoffeeBean stone , waited for darl.
Late for 1andhalf hour. ><
Then went starbucks which is full again then we returned to CoffeeBean.
I keep doing the sums wrong. All and everything.
Even the ones I did few days ago.I'm done for my exams I tell you.
I hope I won't get a mental block or something during exams,or big shit.

Anyway.Darl sent me home.
He missed me alot,hahah.

I'm going back to piano again! :)
For my future and to be smarter :D
Yes.I'm determined.Very.

Darling I love you.
Lucky to have sucha sweet ass boyfriend.
Who lets me abuse him,even though you're seriously an ass at times.
But anyway.I love you!

He was quite concern about my piercing though( and me too of cos).
Cause my dad pulled it last night. Roarrr.

Vinceeeent Zacharyyyyyyy:

Cause you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cause I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven


Eh darling,I'll runaway with you if you want me to.
Hahah! Lime's so gay. I like Teenage and Teens more :)
I love you anyway :D
Studied tillllllllllll around 7plus.
I like airport.Hehe.
Then Fishballz mum called and went dinner at Fish&Co. together and reached home @ 11 .
I forgot to buy newspaper for mum and I've to go out and get it.
When I'm home,someone followed me up.
I'm serious.Fucken scary.I was about to tear when I told my dad.

Darling I love you! :)
Very much.At least you care and love.
Seeing you get worried even though you're playing your game and make me scared.
Cause you took quite long to reply me! >:)
But anywayyyy...I'm seeing you tomorrow again to studyyy together!
You're the one who motivates me. Weeeheee!~
Hehe.Cause we hardly spend some time together but I don't mind.
After Midyears its your time to spend time with meeeee :)
I miss you more each day, love you a little more each day.

Going to meet Sheryl tomorrow at Tm before going.Cause I'm afraid of Banglahs.
As in seriously.I still have tuition in the morning at 8.30Am.Hope I won't feel tired when studying.Rahhhhhhhz.Nevermind.I've got my darling.

Goodnight world,gonna talk to my darl and give him my full attention.
Or maybe not,he's not giving me his.Hahah.

Happy birthday my dearrest sister!:D
Even though you won't see this.
Studying @ Airport.
Wanted to study Geography now but nothing goes into my mind.
Cause I miss my darl :)

Okay alright, came here suppose to study at CoffeeBean but its full.
Starbucks is somehow full too then now at Pacific Coffee Company.

FINALLY,I finished my graph drawing. Got angry drawing it yesterday.
Re-do a few times still wrong. Chicken rice said I'm careless for my algebra shit,which I've to admit too.

But anyway...gonna study tomorrrow too.
Or I'll fail my damn midyear.Roar.

Darl's gonna go church now and poolz with friends.
I'm gonna study till 9pm cause i dont wanna go home.
Rahhhhhhh. I miss my darl alot.

I love my friends and darling.
Fishballz is so cool,just that she don't wanna lend me her jacket!
I'm freeezzinngggggg.

OKAY BYEBYE.
Went Starbucks for Gsp today.
(It was raining and the damn thunder scare us all.Went screaming and ain't the only bunch.
ROAR): )
Coolz huh? Everyone was slacking and doing others while me,xe,pok and yiting are doing some work. I really need some revision.
Then studied till the end something happen'd and Gerlyn and Weiting came.
I like Gerlyn :D Weiting looked like Merabel O:

Then darling came to fetch me home.
Hahah.His first sentence was : " Woah,I came all the way here to fetch you leh."
Lol. This is how gay my darling is. :) I like ~

Hmmz. I just had a good time with my teammates and my classmates-cum-basketballers.
Yinghui and Eugenia had their mentoring session there though.
Yingyong's a very...nice guy:D So fun to play with.
Wanyu's nice too! :D Very.
I regretted for giving up the mentoring session.
But it's okay,still got my darling.

I studied from...2plus till six plus and tution at home till 11pm.
I'm very tired but. Don't feel like sleeping.

Sister's party and after that Airport for study with moo and don't know who else.
But anyway,I'll be studying at the airport for tomorrow and sunday.
I've to studyyyyyyyy,yes,I've to.
I've got 3 ZEROS already.Can't afford to have anymore.
No.Not for my exams.

I'm gonna study as much as I can.
Get good grades for mummy and daddy and Darling!:D

I LOVE V DARLING!

And..I think my team doesn't has anyone who's in combine school):
I wanted to be in since last year but...forget it already eh?
Quite stressful though so forget it.

(Hope Leonard's having fun in the army camp though:)
I think if it's my boyfriend who's in the army it's a very saaaad thing,awwww!)
English paper was rather okay today.
I like the comprehension passages,very nice and touching.
Slept after the paper, was freezing all the way.
Since the time I woke up till I went to school till I came out and went studying I was still freezing.

Then after school went studying with darl and his friends.
Very interesting friends he has got. Yes. Very.
Just, someone y'know...
Ah.Shutup carolyn.

Then I kept studing and studying.
Felt like breaking down already.
I don't wanna fail my Midyear.
I showed Moo and Joan my papers which I failed and the went like...giving me a very...suprised face.
And said,how could I fail like that.I've deproved alot.
Yeah,I think it's too much already.
So I kept studying just now.
Plus I felt very awkward and all with darl's friends so I shut up.
Kept smsing moo and so I've a "company" .

Then he couldn't send me home cause I didn't want him to.
My poor darl has tuition -again.
Then I didn't want to make him feel very tired so I told him not to.
Yeah. Taking bus alone sucks.

This guy who sat beside me was cocked up.
He's so damn big size and he expect me to get up and move out of my seat like when he's so big size and leaving a few cm gap for me to walk.
Got very angry and felt shit too-.-

But anyway.I'm gonna sleep now.
Veryvery tired.

And ohoh!
Darl's happy to see the thing I drew for him.
Hah, wanted to pass it to him long time ago but I got no balls to do it.
Cause I think it sucks but he said it was very sweet though :)
At least someone who appreciates all this.

I LOVE YOU DARL (V) :D
Always :)


At Tampines seconday, watched the teacher's match against their teachers.

Before that all of us were stoning in school.
I slept while waiting for darl to wake up and sms me.
Rahhh, but anyway.

I'm done now.
Studying with darl,glen and cheryl tomorrow.
I'm doomed, for tomorrow.
Cause I don't wanna turn up but I'm trying to be nice.
Fuck that. Goodnight.
Okay.Goodnight world.

I love my (V) darling :)
Geography lesson now and he lets us use the computer cause it's not readyy.

My darling gay, he's not here!):
Get welll soon my loveeee :)
But anyway, I miss you.

Gsp today,again.
It's going to be damn bullshit but no choice right?

Last night was a very -.- night.
Merabel and all were quarelling what Maturbate and sparring.
Wtf right, damn shit.

But anyway, I'm happy girl now.
No more you, I'm better off.

I LOVE (V), my darling gay! :D
-
Ipw and I'm posting cause we've done everythng already.
Browsed through his friendster and I got very worked up.
Okay...So I just have to stand whatever darl does and um, his friends do to him.
I get jealous easily.
Very, cause no one does this* when they're attached.
No,I don't do that.
I just don't want to. for tomorrow.Damn.
Cause I don't like that particular person much and...making me disklike that person more.
Forget it, I'm always hating/disliking someone when I'm in a r/s.
I hate to hate and I'm fucking tired of hating/disliking.
I might just tell darl andor just shut the fuck up.
It's just the first day and I'm already...
But it's just something I can't stand very much.
Okay no,it's just the way he make his everyday.

No carolyn,you've to be a nice for now,and always!
Fuck you carolyn. Diam diam diam.
Just shutup and get through this damn fuck shit.
Stop fucking complaining and roar !!

I'm still not done with all my rants.
I neeed someone to whack.
I neeed someone to hear me swear and curse now.

Angry,very angry.
And fuck you.

*breathes in and out.
ROARRRRRRRRRR!
I'M FEELING FUCKING FUCK'D UP NOW.
FUCK YOU ALLLLLLLL.
Yesterday had Literature test after school.
It wasn't that bad, just when I skipped the Macbeth part first and did Romeo&Juliet first after that returning to Macbeth I felt shit to do it.
I like Romeo and Juliet more now.
Use to be wanting to do Macbeth but the Cd sucks, cause it's very old Cd and it's not good.

Then went for the boring and the last programme I would wanna go, Gsp.
Total boring-ness. I was drawing and all, like always.
Waiting for time to pass like - ticktockticktock till 6 and we can leave.
Hahah. Lixuan went home with me as usual.
The one who lives the nearest to me.
If I move to Marine Parade, who I go home with? Awww):

Today wasn't very good or nice.
I've got a damn moodswing when English.
Azrina didn't come we still have our compo test.
Sucked like shit, 300words.
Like yesterday I was sleeping in Eng. when Azrina was explaining all the crap.
I don't know how I sleep and my jaw felt pain when I move it-.-''
Having headache and felt damn stress shit.

And damn. I told myself I can't sleep today for any lessons.
Then...in the end I did and slept for half a maths lesson.
Felt bad. But I did my work before I slept. But still , rah.

And waiting for time to pass.
Assembly was good. Had a nice time with Yiting.
Nice time smsing (V) too :)
I'm always happy with him luh~

Then went for HomeEcon practical test.
I keep complaining and complaining.
The pan is small, rice keep coming out.
Rah. Then it's too salty when Mdm Shireen try it.
I added Soysauce and salt, cause Eug said when she cook it, it won't be salty if you only put salt.
Then I listen'd to her, ended up like that.
I only ordered chicken but I got an egg,few prawns and two crabsticks together with the chicken.
(I remember I wrote Crabmeat in the evaluation thing. Shit.)
I haven't did the theory book yet. Since March don't know when.
Somewhere along...when we were having national semi-finals.

Studied in school. Finished my chinese writting.
Just the words.And chinese workbook. I hate doing cheena homework now.
Serious. And that's why my chinese from A drop to C or D.
Forget it. Then Kongkong came back to coach Simin and all for work.
While me,xuan,ang and pok went home. I'm tired bored.
And there's no tuition today! Hahah, but poor (V) , he has it ): aww.
Nevermind,I'm waiting for him. Heehee.

And to everyone who thinks I'm desprate for a Bf, I'm telling you:
I'm not desprate for a damn Bf, if you don't know what I tell others then shutup.
If I'm desprate, then what word would you use on that asshole who held her hands and all already? Fucking desprate or what? So was it my fault?
I have all rights to find another one, better off than that asshole.
Hope E won't suffer when she's with him, nah she won't.

JH:I'm just okay with you already. Think about what you say behind my back.
It's because of what you said behind me so I didn't wanna see you.
So I don't want you to go suntec. Ahhh, but whatever now.
Just stop saying things behind people or , I mean. People do gossip.
But when that person hears it, this is the way they'll react.

There's just another one who's like Jh, talk behind people's back and acts nice infront of you.
Makes me feel so anti to that person. Think of who you are.
I hardly say bad things about people, other than the ones I don't like and you know.
It's hard to find a friend who's true to you. Cherish your friends around.

I Love (V) .
Weeheeeheeee !
Thanks Sheryl&Yiting accompanying me there. And wait.
He didn't mean it. Yes,he didn't.

And walked around Suntec. Like idiots.
I'm already moaning while walking.
Cause I'm really tired.Very.
Plus we don't even know the place well.
Lol,I'm still happy :D
Ended up at Kfc with Sheryl,Yiting and his friend,Reuben.

So. I was too cold. Went out and stoned till 10 plus.
Then left for bus.Reached Tm at 1130, no more buses already.
Then had to taxi home, thanks for the taxi (V)!

I LOVE (V) ! YAYYYYYY!

I said 2 times vulgarities when I tell myself I won't.
I kept saying sorry although he didn't mind. But still.

I'm happy tonight,
happier without you(gy).

JH: Don't be a hyprocrite. Stop backstabbing people.
Ain't happy, come forward and tell it to my face.
No point you saying this infront of me, and that infront of her.
You're total crap. Someone who people can't trust.
Damn. Spoil my day.
Went Parkway with Xuan yesterday noon.
Cabbed there, I was too lazy to bus.

Then sheryl and Zhaobin bought me a Patrick balloon.
Cause I look like Patrick.

Lol.Then went Tm for my flats.
Saw them again. This time with Jinghui,Yinghui,Yiting!
Then went along with them. And talkeeeddd all the way.

And they came my house to stone.
& talked also and planned for today.
I mean sheryl only.

She and Yiting's gonna bodyguard me all the way to Suntec to meet (V).
Cause you when you take Mrt till a stop, there'll be banglahs.
Then I'm. You know. :@

I'm waiting and hope time pass away faster :D
Then weeeez~
I only loveee (V) now .
Yayyy, I'm on a dateee :D
See the word - DATE.
With who ? (V) !
:D Bwahah.

And oh, kenneth couldn't reach me yesterday so he can't have lunch with me):
He wanted to but. Somehow. My phone cocked up.
Then he couldn't reach me. I was blaming him all the way(not scold but like think it's his fault).
Till I signed in Msn and saw he left me a message. Awww.

I wanted to say I love someone here.
But I forgotten who is it.

I'M OVER YOU , OVER YOU , OVER YOU NOW.
MEMORIES FADING AWAY.

Hahah, I still have lots of date coming up along, right Eugene x) .
And oh, I ain't a flirt. :D
I date girls and guys. I'm bisexual. Coolz ?

Bye alll .
Last night was total -damn.
Waiting people to IM me out for supper.
Andy said okay and he ps me cause his mum.
And the rest would be too far from my house.
Then I was thinking to go back to the chalet, it's going 12 already so I was too gay.

And now. Sitting here waiting for kenneth to sms me.
He's another pathetic guy,awww):
Collecting newspaper for no apparent reasons?
I didn't ask him. But he's suppose to sms me now.
Damn. I'm waiting here like bored. Shitz.

I keep thinking of him and her,fuck.
But anyway, even though they hold hands or sit no matter how closeee.
It doesn't matter me anymore.
I just feel like giving him a fucken tight slap on his fucked up face.
Curse and swear at him. Yes.
I would go to some ulu guy who knows some curse and all and make you suffer a million times more than I suffered.
So what if she's better than me?
I'll never be good enough for you. So fuck you upside down and inside down.
I was just stupid to be with you again. Cause I never saw this coming.
Hope she wasn't stupid to be with you. I'm not jealous or anything.
Fucken gay asshole. Who dances tango at every soccer match.
FUCK YOU,GY.

Eugenia/Evania :
Good luck to you and him.
When it all ends you'll think how fucking stupid is it to be with him.
I have no grudge against you.
Neither do I want to hate you anymore.
It's just tiring. Last long with him.
So yep. I don't mean anything here.
Okay. He'll love you alot. So I'll shut.
-End.

Okay. I shall be nice and stop ruining his whatever.
My blog's dirty now (Eww).

I just love (V) now. Hehe.
But anywayyyyy.
Yiting's like. My. Omg.
She's like helping me to ask him out when I say don't need.
Wahhhhhhh. She's wanting my life.

Damn you kenneth( :) ). Always make me wait.

I blog at least twice a day. Dang.
Very no life. It's nice anyway.

I've got a. Like racist joke. (V) said it to me.
But I think it's bad so I don't want to.
:)
Very tired today. Everyday meeting xuan at 6.15Am, damn.
Luckily it's a friday, so it's finally the end of the week!
Everyone must be waiting for fridays to come. Hahah :)

Saw him and her went out of school. Makes me want to give up more.
Nah, I'm already over him.
Hate me? Stop saying I still got chance and all. Fucking sick of it already.
Yes and very. I don't love you. I just hate the fact that you're with her.
So yep. In the first place when I didn't type 'I'm over you' in friendster, you cared?
No. So yeah. Fuck you, I don't want you back.
Hope you two suffer like how the fuck I suffered.
You fucking left me here when you use to say you love me like fuck.
Fuck all those rubbish you told me.
Pathetic asshole. Hate me for all I care.
You said your current darling looked like a 'buang' or somehow ugly in the past.
Now you go back to her, LOSER.
-End.
(I just pray hard you get your retribution. Making me fucking suffer.
Forever? Fuck you damn bullshit).

...

Had friendly with teachers , lol .
They're not that bad after all ! :D
Thanks Isabel for the jersey .

Then wanted dinner with.... but grrr-.-''
nevermind hahah .
Went Veron's chalet instead.
Lol. Lj and all were there and this butch , cindy or w/e - looks like bird .
Like Vivie too haha . All bird so they're together :D

Then cabbed home cause I'm too afraid .
Muaha, I'm done.

FUCK YOU , YOU HOE , I DON'T WANT YOU BACK.
My classmates got me damn wet during recess, it was my big day.
I somehow knew it. Told them don't pour water on my hair and they still do it.

From top to toe I was wet & cold , very . Hahah , they used the water from the water cooler.
Went back to class like a ducky and they left my shoe in the recycle bin and asked me to step on a chair to go in and get it . And they pushed me in - I managed to come out lah . Hahah .

Then went science for test and Ms Gan saw and ask me go G.O for shirt , I didn't want and I came up with rubbish to tell her. But in the end I wore the Champ. Shirt till the end of the lessons I had for the day .

Then went Tmart with Junwei,Cephas,Ruban,Gerald wong& Vishal for lunch .
They were my bodyguards . Lol , Junwei looks like a bouncer( is this the right spelling?) for some club-.-
And went back for enrichment and awhile went away after I finish my one length hair cut for the dummy . Ain't interested :)

Then played volley with pok and xuan and went home with xuan .

Thanks people who wished me happy birthday today ! :D
Thanks Ruban and Junwei for the Lollipops and Ferero :)

I was waiting you to say at least a happy birthday .
I know you will never say it to me , yes never .
Cause you've got her & I'm nothing to you anymore .

Even thought when I saw you at Tmart ,
I got the same old feeling for you ,
the feeling when I first liked you & when I got together with you .
I was trembling and heart beat fast .
I miss those days but no point thinking .

I'm getting over you , almost .
No I'm actually over you .

Happy birthday carolynnnnn :D!

AND OHOH , I'M HAPPY BECAUSE MY BOTH MY PARENTS ARE CELEBRATING MY BIRTHDAY OUTSIDE WOOOOO . I MEAN Y'KNOW . BUT ANYWAY .
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY ~
Just finish our IPW presentation :)
They didn't delete me and hs photo in the slide , wtf-.- .

Went to class when announcement came :
Irene,Jacqueline&Susanna gave me Fruitella and Ferero .
Okay I never expected this :x
And Hanxue - Tolberone .
Thanks people!
I'll get my strawberrry from Zhaobin tomorrow ! :D
YAY . Okay i'm happpy .

Expected and fear'd that won't have much pressie but yeh .
More handshakes aha , so formal !

Lol . Omg , JORDANZ !
Okay he not my type ah . x)

Weian bringing me for Seoul garden and kenneth for skating !

I LOVE MY GIRLFRIENDS , LIKE ALOT YOU KNOW .
And oh , I'm not the one who posted the tag @ redsports !

Carolyn:I love Jordan Toh!!!!!!!!

It's not me .
Go sqeeze some balls if it's you .

Edit :

From my darling always-follow-me-around-socalled-partner , JUNWEI !
☠ﺕWhItE ChoC™ﺕ☠★ says:
HaPpY BiRtHdAy CaRoLyN!!!OLD LIAO HAHAHA. ( 11.59Pm)

Abit early but anyway , ahah !

I can't sleep ! Haha , nevermind .
I'm still happpy :)

I mistook this guy's email add for ken's .
Shit -.-
And I finally remember who is he !
Hahaaaaa , he's haising volleyball guy !
Grad. already , ha .

Okay anyway...
I'm not tired and talking to my beloved wife!

I love the world and my friends and everyone .
Except you and you . :)

I feel so loved .
Hope I won't be taupok-ed tomorrow .
Haha .

Only if love was worth this much ..
Tomorrow's my bigggg day !
It's my birthdayyyyy ~
Yayyy , I'm 14 alreadyyy !
Imma bimbo ! Bimbo's birthday tomorrow !!
Waited so long and feel sad ... till next year for another one ):
( Zb and all named me bimbo when I'm not one ) .

I hope my mates are not gonna do something bad to me .
They told me bring an extra shirt . @:

Clement doesn't wanna help me anymore ):
Cause I scolded him bastard , eh wahlao .
He cannot take joke one la , i dont know canzxs .
Okay he told xuan he was the most evil guy . -.-
Lame .

Went Tm after school for lunch with xuan .
Then went back for GSP ( sucks ) .
Then went back to Tm to slack , her mum isn't back , no keys .
So yeah .

...

Thanks people who wished me happy birthday !
& I'll never expect Andy(Ho) to .... haha , was nice anyway !
(Shasha misses me ~ ) YAY .
And oh , Yinghui , Yiting & Shaffirul - Thanks for the barney balloon ! :D
They said I look like barney so they bought it ( -.- , ): )

And oh ... the two person who tag my blog with a no name but some funny name :
Thanks ! Was very touched , I thought it was a spam .
Very meaningful - too :D
But thanks anyway , I'm okay already .

Was talking to Vishal Borat , then he said he's house got B* cause he having a new room :

The road to Athens Liverpool Fc Vs Chelsea Fc says:
there are bangalahs everywhere
The road to Athens Liverpool Fc Vs Chelsea Fc says:
mus ask cephas come alr
The road to Athens Liverpool Fc Vs Chelsea Fc says:
haha
The road to Athens Liverpool Fc Vs Chelsea Fc says:
he bangalah hunter

and Cephas is gross , very .
And extremely haha .

I kept thinking about him and her , wtf-.-
Okay then I told myself not to ! I WON'T !
I wrote it very huge in my diary : FORGET ( name here ) ! HE'S AN ASSHOLE :D
And yeap , even though places hold lots of memories .
I still got the determination still , I will .
People thinking he would come back to me someday .
We'll see next time if he really does :) ( I doubt he will ) .

I got over him so soon because of the things he did to me .
Okay whatever . I don't really care . I must get over .
Haha , soon already la . I will make it through .

I'm sorry clement ! ):
And I ( type word here ) JORDAN !
Haha , so crazy over him haha ! :D

YAYYY , THREE CHEERS FOR ME .
IMMA HEROINE NOW OKAY .

I'm having a flu , cough and yeah somehow sore throat .
Lixuan's and me has much telepathy with each other , wooo !

And thanks Xiangting , I'm okay :D
She said :

Whatever comes by today , you still have tomorrow .

Night world . I hate studing but I have to .

I wanna watch this , haha . Very meaningful I think :@

I'm going to get over YOU .
I'm tired of doing all this . Yes , very .
I hate to contradict whatever I tell people ( I realise it myself too ) .

Even though lots of places holds memories of us but still - I must get over and get on life ! :)
( I HAVE TOOOOOOOO ! )
Cause you don't care , why I bother .
You got HER , so ? I can have another him too .

Yay . Imma slut ?
Yeah , love you too much till the things I'm doing caused me to be a slut to you .

Oh yeh - To that her , thinking you know who are you :
You can have him now , don't have to worry I'll be back for him :)
Hope you two enjoy your new love or whatever life .

So I'm single now and I can flirt the fuck out of myself .
Yes I will I promise you .
You can don't care , so can I !

Heh . Talked to my mum about this .
I should've listened to people and her , if not for me loving you too much .
I'm out of your list yeah , slowly I delete those things away .
Just changed my wallpaper . Before it was of us .

Oh welll . I just need to forget you .

> FORGET YOU
> FORGET WHATEVER WE USE TO DO
> NEW LIFE ! ROARRZ .
> AND OF COS , SOMEONE BETTER

There's no point missing you or loving you like how I did in the past .
They're just bullshit to you .
The past's a bullshit too , when I see it from here .
Liar ! ( Hahah , childish !).

...

Before going EPPS with xueer and juan .
Went Ws with MissQuek and lyvia and them to Mac.

Hahah .
I've been living in hell for the past .
I give up already , after all he's just an asshole .
I'm just a fucking slut to him .

I need my friends and all only leh .
Hate me for all I care :)

Chicken riceeeeeeeee ~!
Be gladddd . HAHA :)

I LOVE JORDAN OMGZ HAHA .
He's just soo .... coolz !

I must slim downnnnnn ! :D
I WILLLLLLL WOO WOO .
Everyone , say I'm a pathetic loser now .
Fucking pathetic loser .

I got run down by him till so pathetic I'm still asking for another chance .
I feel like a bitch , feel so pathetic . I lose all my pride now .

Everyone tells me I can find someone better .
I wish I could , no I can! But I can't let go of the past .
Nothings going to be the same anymore .
Won't have the same feelings .

Nothing I do will be good enough for you .
He told me people told him to give me chance but he'll never give it to me .

For long this goes on , I'm going nuts .
I kept myself up with a fake smile .
Everyone was why so hyper .

I tricked him and made him a fool ?
Never tell me what I did wrong until now , we're over .

Tell me I'm dying soon .
Cause I'm just anth bitch to you .

Memories killing me .

Blocked me on Msn , damn .
I don't know what can I do .
Nothing can make you come back anymore.

I'm very proud of myself , very .
I never thought that I would be in the national champion team .
My hardwork paid off .

(Just that he never appreciate me for all this ... volleyball stuffs .
Ever lousy in his heart , or thinking , volleyball sucks to him .
Never proud of me when it all relates to volleyball) .

I should start all over again ( trying hard , very ) .
Work hard for my studies .
Find new love ( or not . studies priority! for now :) ) .
And maybe he'll be back soon .
Just there are wayyyy to much restrictions with him .

Group study programme for volley girls today .
Cgirls studied and slacked . Then they finally gave me my birthday card.
Few weeks ago I saw but they refuse to show me and I forgotten about it .
Then when I was slacking , they came to me and kissed me and hugs :)
Thanks guys , I cried in the end . Too touched !

Sighs . I don't know what I want exactly .

Coach told yuhan :
排球不应该使人脆弱； 排球应该使人越来越勇敢，坚强。

Very meaningful . I learn , lost and gain alot of things from volleyball .
I lost something , I could never get it back again .

You're being not very nice now .
You said those words in the past are crap now .
I don't know what can I say .


Over you , Chris Draughty

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
Last post for tonight .

Thanks people who asked me to cheer up.
Talked to Irene and Jacqueline when I never expect it to happen :)
And my YC kongkong , Jeff. , Chickenrice! , Lixuan , P. , T. , Zhaobin & Jinghui !

Okay . They've been talking to me on Msn which made me felt less lonely and hm .
I don't need him as much , but when I am lonely , I don't know what will happen .
Damn . Chickenrice's gonna come back and ask me out for lunchyy !
He's gonna make a list in order make me not to get violent .
Hah .
Zhaobin's more ridiculous , she thinks that me and V. are compatible .
Haa , no wayyy . :)

I'm trying to be happy , and I know I'll break down tomorrow .
Not on purpose okay . Cause I did it 2 times today .

Watched Extreme Makeover : Home Edition .
This couple got married and husband can't talk & wife can't hear .
With two sons , one son's blind and another's nothing wrong .
I envy the love they share together despite they were all not very perfect like you know .
This older brother take care of his little bro , who's blind very well .
His wish was to go to college and all . But his parents couldn't afford .

They build them a new house and gave the blind boy whatever he need and cameras around make sure he don't run away . And in his parents room an alarm and the bed would shake when the little boy tries to run away .
The older bro in the end got a 50,000 dollar scholarship .
And they made a swing just for the little boy !

Sighs , so sweet right the family .

Anw , I'm still who I am .
Just without a boyfriend and with no love .
Oh well .
I miss hugging you .
I guess you don't give a damn anymore.

I wrote your name in the sand but it got washed away,
I wrote your name in the sky but it got blown away,
I wrote your name in my heart and there forever it will stay.

I still love you baby , <3

Edited@11.53Pm :

I guess he's outside with his friends , having fun .
Smsing her , thinking she knew we broke up .

I'm afraid he goes to her .
Really , because I love him too much .
I know she's better looking than I am - a thousand million times .
You said she look like buang and now ?
You're gonna show me that you like her and everything you told me was what - crap ?

Yeah , fuck off carolyn .
You're just a fucking fat asshole and ugly too ,
who doesn't know how to treat your darling baby nice .
You took him for granted and you're asking for him back .

Till next year then .
Waaaaait and wait .

I miss hugging you , you kissing my forehead .
Everythings the past now , only memories that I can think of .

I can't sleep .
I have to make myself very tired every night so I can sleep .
Or I'll start thinking . Damnit .

Labels: I'll love you even more than today ., Let the words fall where they may

You've forgotten me .
I'm nothing to you already .
You don't know who I am .

I was the one you used to love so damn much .
And now , I'm nothing to you .
Whatever I hope it didn't came true , it became the reality .

I'll fuck off from you , but I'm still waiting .
You're ignoring me already .
I'm waiting , for you to sms me one day and say you miss me .
Might not happen but yeah .
Maybe it's because of your friends that made you feel that I'm not important anymore .
( Or maybe not ) .

Damn , I was looking for * last night but * wasn't online . ( Grr ) .
Nevermind, I IM-ed P. too , wasn't there -.- .
At that moment I was already breaking down, going to I mean .
Then I went Tv till 3Am and off to bed .
Then force myself to sleep till the latest I could in the morning .
Woke up and 12.20 & here I am .
Was suppose to be out with him today but ... yeah .

Thanks Lixuan&Joan ! :D
Much love <3
& Ly for the comment .

Life's unpredictable eh ?
My very missed nanny's here again !
He saw the report @ redsports.sg and ..
sanjiao = panties -.- Wtf right .

i love my Tamagotchi says:
yr panties so big
i love my Tamagotchi says:
lol
Hold on to patience & watch time show it's sign . says:
stop being an ass la
i love my Tamagotchi says:
ok lah.
i love my Tamagotchi says:
u are sexy babeh bub ok
i love my Tamagotchi says:
:)
i love my Tamagotchi says:
YAY hugs!

Okay nevermind , afterall , my dear nannyyyyyyy .
Still an ass after so long . Ooooh well . I'm still not over you .

Hold on to patience & watch time show it's sign.
If it's meant to be yours , it'll come back someday.
I know you'll be back . Say you miss me again .


Couldn't find nice skins , so this skin will still be here .
And my friendster pictures too , I'm not trying to be thick-skinned .
Www.redsports.sg ( Me & Pok's picture are there woooo ~! )
Ngee Ann Nationals Champion !
I wasn't very happy .. but then . Hah (:

Today was the last day he spent with me .
Last lunch , movie , hug , kiss , walk , whatever .
We're just done , simply because ... he doesn't love me anymore .
I cried - like any other girls would do .

He's gonna miss my birthday again this year .
Like I missed him last year ( think about it , it's dumb . We would've been together for a year already then ) .
Well . I didn't choose my own path like coming to this school , being a volleyballer .

So , I'll try and wait - wait - wait .
I've already lay down my pride , and yeah , I'm done .
Waiting . . .
For my Baby(Always) :



When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
WhenI love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what

...

I still don't know the song of the lyrics .
I mean the one I always listen to on his iPod .
I cried when I listen'd to it , my last time .

A past so dear , you know I could keep holding on .
You made up your mind & I could say nothing , no more .
I'm waiting , been waiting .

We use to be out on sundays .
Now ? No more .
I'm left with memories now .
A past , very very dear to me .
I once held so tightly , kept it only to myself .
You know its so hard to say goodbye when it's the end.
It's so out of line to try and turn back time.

I love You, still.
080706.
Whats the 9months of love all about?

I just want you back .

(I saw the old post , we use to be so happy together .
I can't understand why you don't feel for me anymore .
I really really love you , with my whole damn heart .
Be back , soon . )
I'm at baby's house now with him .

Went to visit my granddad just now .
Like less than an hour .
I just realise my hokkien isn't that bad after all .
Just his hokkien is more cheem hokkien .

Okay . Tuition in the morning sucks .

Then um ... we're going Ecp now for food ! :D
Hungry hungry , very hungry -.-

Hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (:
( thats from geraud yeo=.-'' )

Haha . Okay so tomorrow's against Shuqun .
We'll beat them ! :D

Okay bye .
I think he's going to (love) me again .
Lol , IM HUNGRY BYE .

MY BIRTHDAY COMING SO EXCITED CAN
mine too!!!!

Geraud=Lame=sitting down! (:

He's adding on to whatever i'm typing now -.-
oh really?!

Oh my godz .
oh my carolyn!! <3